Category: Life

Jul 22

Hong Kong Journeys – Part One

Hong Kong is such an interesting place. I’ve often called it the ‘New York’ of asia, its a melting pot of different cultures, races and communities. The rich of the rich and the poor of the poor all living together in a pool of almost 8 million people in an area the size of Perth City.

Different areas of the city reflect different mindsets and cultural norms. From the freshly waxed shiny marble floors, french patisseries and couture fashion galleries of Times Square to the soft wafts of incense circulating the red and gold Buddhist temples of Wong Tai Sin, it is definitely unlike any place I have yet to know.

The past few days I’ve been absorbing the energy of the bright lights, crowds and the HK chinese culture. Its been great having friends here that have been able to take me around to eat (a major past time of local HK’ers) and explain to me the ins and outs about getting myself set up here as a long term resident. Thats such a crazy thought. I still can’t believe I am here and that this place will be my home now. That this busy lifestyle and culture is now my life. It makes me realise that taking time to rest is going to be more of a conscious decision now.

I don’t want to be here in the mindset that I am apart from this. A ‘me versus them’ mentality. I want to really be a part of what’s going on over here, involved in the culture and fully engaged in everything that I am doing. I don’t want to have regrets about being here, and in full honesty I don’t, because here is what I truly believe is where God wants me to be. No matter how much of a fish out of water I am feeling right now.

Knowing the fact that God has me out here for a reason makes it quite exciting. It feels like I am living on the edge, not quite sure about what’s going to happen but knowing what ever does happen, is meant to be.

I caught up with my friend Dave tonight. Its funny how you can have friendships that pick up right where they left off. Dave is definitely one of those friends for me, even after seeing him again at christmas for the first time in something like 4-5 years, its like we had never stopped talking. Dave is an accountant, and accountants are good friends to have. Especially when you are not familiar with the currency or the expenditure of the country. So he sat down with me tonight and helped me do my budget and explained a few ‘need to knows’ about Hong Kong to me.

Some surprising things he said was that if you want to get a good deal in a shop or get good customer service you need to speak english. Don’t speak cantonese. He said he never speaks cantonese with shop attendants, unless they are small local stores. I got a mobile plan today and he reckons I got ripped off because I tried to speak cantonese with the shop assistant, and that if I had spoken in english I proberly would of gotten a better deal. I’m not sure how that works but apparently it works. We tried his theory out in one of the shops and surely enough the shop assistant was alot more polite and courteous. Bizarre.

Another interesting thing was that whilst doing my budget I realised exactly how low the tax is in HK. I worked it out I was paying less than 1% tax on my income, which I think is absolutely crazy. Less than 1% tax?! Apparently the maximum tax you will pay on your income in HK is 15% which is really good considering I was paying about 25-30% out of my salary in Australia. That proberly explains why so many people from overseas come and stay in HK; high expatriate incomes, low taxes, and low cost of living makes for a nice comfortable life.

I am moving into my apartment on Thursday and I can’t hardly wait. Living in my grandmas tiny apartment is proving challenging. It feels claustrophobic and I hate the feeling of living out of a suitcase. I can’t wait to set up my apartment the way I want it, with more space to move and a home for the very few things I do have left. I feel pretty blessed the school gives me a place to stay, the most expensive thing about living in HK is rent and that is the one thing I don’t have to think about.

Will I be here forever? I doubt it. I know its for a season. But in the meantime I am going to make the most of it. A couple of my goals for this season is to learn to speak Cantonese more fluently, to get to know my family better and to get a deeper heart for the city and the people here. Its going to be a fun ride!

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Jul 17

Grateful.

The past couple of weeks have been a whirlwind of organising, packing and anticipation. Its flown by and so here I am. My last night in Perth. My last sleep in this beautiful laid back city. I can’t believe it.

I have been exceedingly blessed. I am so taken back by the love and generosity of my friends and church family. Its more than I could of imagined. I have been so honored and I feel so honored to know them as well; honored to have them be a significant part of my life. I will miss them dearly.

I’ve been reflecting on my time here in Australia and at Sunset Coast and all I can think of is the word, grateful. I am so grateful. Grateful that I have been able to be a part of something so much bigger than myself. To have been able to serve God along side some of the most fantastic people. People who have taken time to know me, sow into me, grow and challenge me. I would not be who I am today without some of these people who encouraged me throughout the years and have never given up on me, even when I, myself, doubted. It’s been one crazy adventure together.

And I can see God through it all. He’s been there all through this journey with me from day one. I can see the pathways, the nooks and cranny’s He has led me through and I have come through on the other side of this city, different. Changed and immensely impacted. Not even being able to recognise myself anymore.

God has been so faithfully good to me. I have seen the outworking of his love and faithfulness ever so much more evident in my life in the last 9 months. Its been an emotional journey, many nights praying, seeking wise council, hoping and believing. And despite the odds God pulled through for me in the only way that God knows how, through the unexpected. I have kept believing, being expectant, walking through the doors that have opened before me… and He has made my way straight. He has sold my car, blessed me through others and enabled me to pay off all my debt with money to spare. For the first time in 8 years, I am debt free. I am walking into my new life, released.

As I packed the last of my belongings tonight, it hit me. I am leaving everything I’ve ever known and loved to pursue what I believe to be where God wants me to be. To do what I believe is right. There is a sense of expectancy in the air. There is a sense of destiny.

I am going there with my heart, my eyes and my hands wide open.

I have no idea what the future will hold once I board that plane, but I do know that as I hold tightly to His hand, everything will be O.K.

My heart feels like its going to burst, I am in absolute awe.

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Jul 15

Thank you.

Hindsight is a funny thing.

Its often upon reflection of things gone by, do we sometimes realise how far we have really come and of those who have helped us get there. The past 4.5 years at Sunset Coast CLC have been such a God adventure of growth and discovery for me. To have spent that journey growing with you has impacted, changed and shaped me in so many ways. It has equipped and enabled me to become the person I am today.

I have never been a great person at organising things, especially something for myself.. such as a farewell/birthday party. So thank you Carrie so much for all your hardwork, organisational skills and thoughtfulness in making my farewell party tonight a beautiful memory that will always be something so special in my heart.

And thank you all of you who had come out (on a Monday night!) to spend it with me and send me off so blessed. Your kindness love and friendship has truly blown me away. I am at loss for words. To know you all care so much means the world to me.

I know I have already said this tonight to all of you, but the more I thought about it on the way home in the car the more I have to thank God so much for His goodness. You have played such a significant part in my life and I really cherish those moments we have spent together in conversation, in serving and pursuing God together.

You have brought so much healing into my life and have taught and role modelled to me what a healthy Godly family and friendship is and should look like. Thank you all of you who have lovingly taken me into your lives, homes and hearts. Thank you all of you who have shown me the outworking of Psalm 68:6 ( “God sets the lonely in families...”) for I have been one of those ‘lonely’ and you opened your hearts to me and through that shown me God’s love.

It is through you, that I have learnt God’s heart for family. That it is His idea, His heart and His design. And in being a part of the family with you all at Sunset Coast it has enabled me to see the importance of reconciliation with my own natural family. It has been a journey, and we have had our ups and downs together, in season and out of season… but it has been well worth it. I would not have chosen to do this life with anyone else but you. Thank you for believing in me, supporting me, coming along side and encouraging me to be all that I can be. You have shown what real authentic community looks like.

I am excited to see what God has in store for you. Whatever it is I am sure it is great! And I am glad I have been able to know you and been a part of your journey in these days. I am excited to see where life will take us!

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Tonight was such a special night, thank you for being there to share it with me and be a part of this memory. Thank you for all your special messages and gifts! I have been absolutely been blessed and spoilt! I love you all dearly and you all have a special place in my heart.

Philippians 1:3 says “I thank my God every time I remember you.

And I truly do.

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Jul 04

Small tokens of appreciation.

Today was the last day of school. The last day I would be a 10.2 form teacher and the last day I would teach my upper school media students.

I have been spending the past few days praying for and writing thank you notes to my students. I wanted to say thank you for all I have learnt from knowing them and for the privilege of them letting me into their worlds. I feel have grown as a person because of them, that somehow our interactions together have shaped me to some extent. I wanted to thank them because though I might of taught them but I feel somehow I may have parted with the better end of the deal.

So with these thank you notes I wanted to give them something that would enable them to see themselves the way I see them: great, gifted, beautiful people full of so much potential; more than I think they even realise. I wanted to speak their futures into life.

I felt so blessed today. My year 11′s threw a surprise party for me in class, but the finality of it being the last day only really hit me when 3 of the girls gave me the most awesome gift I have ever received: a video they produced wishing me farewell! Watching it almost made me cry, it was so beautifully thoughtful!

I don’t know how I should be feeling right now, except bittersweet. It feels so sad to leave, I am missing it already. I just wanted to share with you some of the other tokens of appreciation I received today that warmed my heart…

From the year 10′s: I’m glad they forgave me for all the infringements I gave them!

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This one just made me laugh.. had to include it, it says ‘Emo for Miss Tsang’. Haha!

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From the year 11′s: I loved the private study periods that seemed more like crowd control than anything else!

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Jul 01

Last week of term

Its the last week of the school term and feels bittersweet.

I think in the last days up to my leaving its made me realise how time is so short. I’m savoring the small moments I have with people because I realise that I will not have these moments again. I don’t want to blink and miss it.

As I am in the process of emotionally detaching myself from this place, I’ve been feeling so blessed. So many kind words and encouragement from people in church, my students and good friends. They have shared stories and reflections on things we have learnt from each other over the years. Even little things we may have said or done without even knowing have made an impact.

There have been rekindled friendships, gifts, surprise parties, birthday and farewell parties and people just taking time out to spend with me over coffee, road trips and dinners. I am so touched and grateful for those who have reached out their hand, time and hospitality to me in my last days. They are creating more beautiful memories that I will always remember. Sometimes it takes a finality of something ending that we begin to appreciate the small things in our lives.

The students have been wonderful. I think sometimes as a teacher you wonder if you are really making a difference. If that if anything we have to say is being significant. And I am realising that even through those tough days as we keep pushing through our tiredness, our fears and loving the unlovely, we really are making a difference.

Today was fun. I had a little party with my year 12’s. An asian themed ‘Miss Tsang’s going to HK’ party. We all brought in some food, I cooked noodles and we shared a meal together. We talked about martial arts cinema and watched Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon. The seniors made a little card for me, it made me laugh so hard!

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I have seen the year 12′s grow so much over the past couple years, I am really going to miss our random discussions in class and their witty comments and nicknames for me: ‘Mise en Tsang’ (As opposed to ‘Mise en scene’ which is a film term for the arrangement of actors, scenery and properties within a frame.)

One of the year 8′s asked me today if the teacher replacing me is as nice as me – Ah comments like that just warm my heart!

I am going to miss this!

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Jun 13

Changing places.

I think a place can change you.

I think we can go places and we come back different. Something has changed. Maybe it is us or maybe it is them – whatever it is, something is different now.

The thing about growing up as a third culture kid (TCK), is that we’ve experienced too many cultures to ever just call one place home. I’ve lived in different cities across 3 different countries, I’ve been places, seen things and come back to find that either I have changed or the place I called home has changed. Things are never the same as we remembered it. Peoples lives move on. Time never stands still as much as we can sometimes want it to.

I have a friend who went to a third world country and he came back different. He saw pain, hunger, poverty and suffering with his own eyes. He saw small children die of AIDS. He went to try to do something. When he came back he was not the same anymore. I think it made him realise alot of things that he used to care about in sleepy suburbia seem all of a sudden small and insignificant. That there are more important things in life than finding a parking space in the parking lot. Or getting annoyed that the neighbors dog keeps pooping on your front lawn. We live a very comfortable life here in Perth.

Like I said, a place can change you.

I was talking to my friend as she drove me home tonight about her own experience of leaving the country and then coming back. We both agreed that we come back, after seeing different cultures and people, with different eyes. You come back wondering where or how you fit in this familiar, yet different home. Sometimes I still struggle with this. I wonder how I fit in. Or how people now relate to me and vice versa. Its just about different life experiences.

My best friend went to China and she came back different. She came back changed. It was good and it was part of the journey God had her on. The experience molded and shaped her into the beautiful person she is today. I wouldn’t change a thing about her.

Don’t get me wrong, I love Perth. I love my life, my friends, my church and everything else my life consists of. God’s given me so much and I am really blessed, sometimes more than I think I even realise. But I know that with me leaving this place, this country and culture, when I come back, life here won’t be how I left it.

I guess thats what also makes life exciting, God has us all on a journey. I sometimes get an itch to want to go out and do something. To dig my fingers in the dirt and grass stains on my knees, to experience something that will change me. I think life’s too short to not. I think with God we never really know how the journey will really pan out, but we know and trust that whatever it is, or wherever it is, with Him it will be Good.

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Jun 10

Daddys girl.

I was on the phone talking to dad on the weekend. Esther was laughing at me in the background listening to me trying to talk to him in my broken cantonese with a bit of english chucked in the middle. Chinglish!

But it was nice just hearing him talk, giving me advice on moving and trying to sound excited but not too overly enthusiastic, like a typical awkward father.

I know my dad loves and cares about me alot. He tries to show it the best way he knows how. I have come to realise and appreciate that. Its funny how we grow up and mature, we start to see things differently.

We stop seeing things with our childish immature eyes and start to see the bigger perspective. It makes me feel terrible about being the unruly teenager I was. I think I am alot more forgiving than I used to be.

I miss dad. I miss having him around.

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Jun 10

Phonecall.

My friend called me last night, she was hurting.

I felt deeply for her yet I felt helpless to do anything. I couldn’t do anything. Stuck for any appropriate words I just held on to the phone and listened. No consolation from me could take the pain away. All I could do was listen, be there and pray for her.

God will pull through on this one, I know. He always does. His Plan is still intact.

(You know who you are and I love you. xo)

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May 04

How are you?

If you read about the Jesus of the bible, He is authentic, genuine, intimate and honest. His actions are motivated with conviction, power and love. The more I learn about the person of Jesus it inspires me to be more like Him. I have been working towards this kind of authenticity.

Authenticity in my relationships, in my conversations and actions. To be in a place where I am operating out of the want to’s and not the have to’s. I’m sure when I am operating out of duty, habit or pleasing man, God sort of just looks at me and shakes his head sadly like, “Anna, what are you doing?”. Every now and then I think its beneficial to question why we are doing what we are doing. I want to be motivated from my heart; and if its not coming from that place then I need to pause and question why.

When I went visit to one of the schools in Hong Kong I was talking to one of the teachers; and he told me how at the beginning of each class he would actually stand at the door and greet each one of his students as they walked in. He would hold their hand and look into their eyes and ask them how they were. Eye contact, touch, “how are you?”. He would completely engage. I thought that was quite beautiful.

I want to grow more like Jesus. I want to look you in the eye, touch your hand and ask “How are you?” with genuine sincerity.

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Mar 26

Dis-Connection.

Have you ever been in a room crowded full of people and felt like everything around you was moving in slow motion?

The loud music playing in the background becomes an echoey dull thud in the distance.

Then everything stands still and becomes silent.

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And for a moment you don’t know if you are dreaming or if you are still awake.

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I wonder if this what it feels like to be totally alone. To feel totally disconnected. From everyone and everything.

I wonder if Jesus ever felt like this. I wonder as He prayed in the Garden of Gethsemane when all this disciples lay sleeping only a stones throw away, how alone He must of felt. Oblivious to them the turmoil Jesus was feeling as He knew what lay ahead. That one close to Him would betray Him and that in turn would lead Him to His Destiny. It would lead Him to the sacrifice He made for all mankind.

Jesus was alone in the garden.

I find solace in knowing this.

I find solace in knowing that Jesus has been there, He has felt this, He was let down by those He loved. And yet He overcame. He knows what its like to ache to the very depths of His bones to the extent that blood perspired from His temples.

Sometimes I think we need those places. Those alone places. Those places where stripped back to nothingness, with no people, no things or places to be to occupy our mind, to have nothing but only space to reckon with God. Its these places where I wonder if I feel more human.

I had to grapple with this concept for a couple days. The aloneness. This feeling of disconnection. I had to tussle with these thoughts and feelings of “What is wrong with me?” till I came to the realisation that there is nothing wrong with me.

So I left the crowd and the noise, and walked myself out into the dark dim lamp lit street.

Theres something about Perth city in the still of the night. Maybe its a combination of the tall skyscrapers reflecting shades of neon lights and the still quiet of the street. No hustle and bustle. Just a quiet humming of streetlights casting its yellow hues.

So I drove. The refrains of “wherever you go I will follow you… ” by Everything But The Girl playing on the stereo. I wasn’t sure where I was going but I wanted to see the city. Speckles of people laughing as they littered out of restaurants onto street corners. I drove to all my favorite places. I drove past The Moon Cafe peering inside the front windows. Undecided if I should go inside alone, I kept driving.

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As I drove down the freeway homeward bound, I thought about how I was feeling. The disconnection.

And I thought about how proberly more than anything it really just highlighted how much I truely am made in His image. That I was created to feel connection. And without this connection I was created for, I felt empty. I wonder if Jesus felt the same way as He knelt praying, sweating blood as those close to Him were asleep and oblivious.

Its a deep dry dull ache.

But this dull ache indicates a God created DNA. My genetic makeup for connection. It reminds me I was created to be connected to Him.

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